i am back

  jamie is feeling .... different lately. she hasnt have this feeling for quite a lont time, and .... it just different. but she also scares.

someone said, the past is passed, the future, we cant see it. that's why we have NOW, and we call it present. :) that's a gift. :)          so, no matter what've happened in the past, stop thinking about it, future, we'll deal with it in the future. and now, just enjoy evey minute we are having now. :)  

u make me feel special

thank you for the dinner. and it's nice to see you again. :)

remember we talked about ur friend, Barbara?  it made me thinks a lot when i was on the way home.
She probably wants to ensure everyone has their own weakness. cus u always appear to be the one who give her a hand and support, she wants to know or .... wants some proof that can tell her SHE isnt the only person who's sad, and everyone has their own problems, she wants to make herself feel more like in the same group of the others, like she is just in the same category with all the other people.
she is insecure. she needs more evidence to let her know she is good, maybe she didn't get it from any sources. i dunno... well, maybe i should use this quote, it's not about having optimistic or pessimistic expectations, but realistic ones. i don't know if i used it in a right way, or appropriate way, but i think sometimes, realistic is bringing people down. and if those people can get over it, and learn something from that, they are good. but on the other hand, if those person keep moaning and complaining but not trying to help themselves, they are the real .... maybe loser? any word to describe but not so negative?
ANYWAY.... probably i have period now, and make me have so much feelings about that.  :D i hope u wont think i have all the heavy conversations and scare u away.

so, r we meeting on thursday? will get off at 7pm, try to switch an earlier shift though, and need to work at 9:30am the next day.
ok... then i started to have either monday or tuseday off when u left to LA.. 

bet u r sleeping already.... sweet dreams :) Jamie